OMG! Since I met Londyn, my whole life has changed! Over Christmas, went to soooo many parties, most filled with celebs, models, film & TV directors and producers...  A lot of the guys were hitting on me but Madison warned me to be careful-- most of these guys just like to use girls. Just want to get them in bed but promise them film roles they'll never get. I was talking to this one really old guy who was telling me he was a manager and could make me a star, but just then Madison came and physically dragged me away. She said that guy was a creep and to stay away. He hadn't worked as a manager since the 80's and prays on young girls. "What, like we're goddesses," I asked. "No, PREY," she said, "like an animal is prey to another one who is about to eat it. You're going to get devoured. End up a screwed up, used up drug addict by the time you're 27 if you're not careful."

Sometimes I feel like Madison is my Mom. She's only two years older than me but she's been in Hollywood longer and says she should be bitter by now, but somehow the sleaziness actually fascinates her. I know she thinks she's protecting me, but I feel sometimes like I want to experience things on my own, even if it doesn't end well. At least I'll have the experience. Not living in the safe bubble Madison is trying to surround me with. At least she talks to me. Londyn just goes off and talks to her celebrity friends and leaves Madison and me with the "dregs," as Madison calls them. Not sure what that means, I keep forgetting to Google it.

Anyway, for me the parties are amazing! Beautiful mansions in the hills or 5 star restaurants, beautiful people, AMAZING fashion! It's like being in some reality show but it actually IS reality! There are usually lots of photographers and video guys there so maybe I already AM a reality star and don't even know it! Oh oh oh! And guess what! I found a photo of myself on a celebrity blog site and it said "Shane Black, director of Iron Man 3 and blonde." I WAS THE BLONDE! I'M ALMOST FAMOUS! :) :) :)

Everything is great, but I keep having these weird scary dreams. I don't know what they mean. I told Madison and Londyn about one of them that involved aliens and they both just looked at me so weirdly that I just shut up and stopped telling them my dreams. Maybe I'll write some of them here. Or should I see a shrink???

I don't know WHAT is going on with Madison and Londyn lately... They're not as fun as usual, they think too much rather than just live in the moment and have FUN! Londyn acts so all like "been there, done that," but duh! So have I! I still know how to have fun! Londyn's all "ANOTHER party on the roof at Drai's???" and I'm like, well yeah, but it's pretty up there. It's a private party so no riff raff. There were tons of cute guys but Londyn and Madison didn't have any fun until like after a million drinks and even then Madison spent the whole time talking to some geek who was a physicist or something who went to MIT. Londyn spent most of the time talking to a gay fashion designer, so I had all the cute fun straight guys to myself!

Was talking to some older guy who was some kind of doctor at the second party (or maybe it was the third) and told him my phone was turned off because I didn't want to give him my phone number and he reaches for his wallet and hands me $200.00! Yay! Shopping tomorrow! :)